Sunday, February 5, 2012

02/05/12

Oh wow its been forever since I posted a blog on here. I always say I'm gonna write alot and then I never do. Maybe its just because my life is so boring that I never have much to say. I just got back from Chattanooga, Tennessee last week. I went down there for orientation to work for Covenant Transport and I'm about to go on a long ass rant about them so be prepared. I go down there and I take a DOT drug test and it comes up positive for marijuana. Now I have no reason to lie on here I haven't smoked marijuana since around November 27th. That was the very last time and it will be the very last time forever because I said after that time I was DONE for good because I wanted to drive a truck. Nearly two months later I take a drug test at the end of January and there's marijuana in my system??  ARE YOU KIDDING ME ????   Then I get back home and these BASTARD truck drivers online verbally bash me and say I'm an unsafe driver and Covenant had every right not to hire me blah blah BLAH BLAH  because I smoked weed  TWO MONTHS ago.  I have NEVER got behind the wheel of a semi truck or any vehicle for that matter while I was intoxicated and I never will. So people are telling me I'm a wreckless unsafe driver even though I have ZERO  accidents  ZERO tickets  ZERO  DWIs  and before this drug test I had never failed on in my life but yet somehow this makes me an unsafe driver??   Please somebody explain that logic to me because it sounds insane to me. I mean how does it make me an unsafe driver because I have a small amount of THC in my system from two months ago ?  To all you truck drivers out there that think that   you can kiss my ass because I'm more of a safe driver than you'll EVER BE.  How many CSA points do you have ?  How many DOT inspections ?   Guess how many I have...  ZERO. I could understand if I had smoked within hours of going down there to take the test  but the fact is that its been two months and I'm never gonna smoke again because I want to drive a truck  but all that might be thrown down the drain now because Covenant reported that failed drug test to the Department Of Transportation so from now on every employer is going to see the fact that I failed a drug test which sucks because I'm never gonna smoke again so they can give me a test  today tomorrow  in 30 days.  Hell I'll PAY for a drug test every 3 weeks if necessary just so they will be satisfied. I'm a good driver and I have a clean driving record and there are not that many truck drivers that can say that. Covenant talks about how they are a faith based company and how they are all about "Christian" values but its not so Christian to not forgive somebody.  They wont hire you if you have ever failed a drug test before or failed one of theirs. Does that sound like forgiveness to you?  I'm going to be clean for the rest of my life from this point on oh but it doesn't matter because Covenant can't forgive somebody.  Do you think I would have went down there if I thought I had marijuana in my system ?   Last time I smoked and went and took a drug test I was clean in THREE WEEKS.  Its been two months this time so why would I think I would fail? That's really all I have to say right now. I really will make an effort to post more blogs when I have something interesting to say.

Monday, October 24, 2011

10/24/11

Well today I went to an interview at RGIS which is a company which goes to different stores and takes inventory for them and I got the job. I really wanted to get a truck driving job but at least this is a job and maybe I can save up enough money to go back to truck driving school and then I'll be able to find a driving job. I had about 7 different people call me this morning and ask me if I was interested in driving jobs because over the weekend I put in like 8 or 9 applications for truck driving and all 7 people said I didn't have the experience they required. I don't understand why they even called. Do they not LOOK at the application before they call ?  It would save me a lot of heartbreak if they did because I had to get rejected 7 times today which sucks. At least I did get that inventory job but the question is will I even work there? Tomorrow I am going to go and see if I can get into this truck driving school and if I do I won't be able to work in that inventory job because I will have to be at the trucking school most of the day. I guess I will just have to see what happens. I go to my training class for this job on Thursday. I'm just glad to finally at least have a job no matter what it is.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Dream - 10/09/11

I wanted to write this down as soon as possible so i don't forget about it. This is a dream I had on the night of October 9, 2011.


I remember being in some city in a hotel room and I remember spraying something on this carpet. I have no idea what it was but I remember after I sprayed the stuff on I sat on the carpet and it began to fly. I remember flying on the magic carpet out of the hotel room and I remember the kids on the street pointing up at me and waving. Then I remember my magic carpet getting stuck in a tree somehow and I had to climb up and untangle it because it was wrapped in the tree limbs. I have no idea how it got that way. The next thing I remember in the dream was I was out driving around with my friend Kristen in the city and I was telling her I had to get back to the hotel room because it was check out time and I had all my stuff there. We went back to the hotel room and they had cleaned the room and put my stuff on the bed for me and they even folded up my magic carpet for me. My friend Kristen told me to come look at something and she led me into my father and step mother's room and opened the closet and in the closet on the shelf up top I reached up and felt and I grabbecd what was up there and it was a big long joint on a plate. I can't remember if there was any extra weed on the plate all I remember was this big long joint. It was like twice the size of a normal sized joint. Well anyway I stuffed the joint in my pocket and put the plate back up there and closed the closet door and we went back into the front of the hotel room. The layout of the hotel room was weird. I've never seen a hotel room with two separate bedrooms. My bed was in the same place the front door was. Well just about that time when we came back into my room my dad and step mom walked in. I believe it was my former step mom Elizabeth. I guess in the dream my dad and Elizabeth were still married. My dad was wearing a police uniform. He is an airport policeman in real life. Well my dad came in and he was happy to see me. I gave him a kiss on the cheek and I remember him and Elizabeth going into their bedroom. I immediately went into the bathroom and flushed the joint down the toilet. I remember wanting to smoke the joint really bad but in the back of my mind I kept thinking to myself, "I can't smoke it I can't smoke it because I have to be clean for a drug test for a job."  So I flushed the joint down the toilet and here is the scary part. After I flushed it I looked in the mirror and my nose was three times its normal size. I remember thinking what the hell is going on. I stood there looking in the mirror for a few minutes and I remember looking to the side to see exactly how long my nose was. It must have been at least ten inches long. I remember getting very scared and wondering what to do and then I looked back in the mirror and my nose was getting smaller and smaller and finally it was back to normal. I believe I woke up after that.


I just woke up from this dream less than 20 minutes ago and I've been sitting here thinking what it could possibly mean. Maybe it means that since I like to smoke weed I shouldn't have taken my dad's joint because I was being hipocritical since I like to smoke as well. My attitude in the dream really does show my real life attitude because my philosophy has always been, "If I can't have it I don't want anybody else to have it either."  So in the dream since I knew I couldn't smoke weed because I needed to be clean, I didn't want anybody else to be smoking it either. Maybe my nose growing like it did meant that I shouldn't take that kind of attitude. This dream took place between the hours of 10:00PM until about 6:25AM on the night of October 9 and morning of October 10. Last night I had a lot of milk to drink and I also had a whole lot of home made chili. I probably ate more than I should have because my stomach was hurting just a little bit after I finished that last bowl. I had a lot of melted cheddar cheese on top of it. I want to record the food I ate because maybe that has something to do with dreaming. Maybe certain kind of foods you eat trigger something inside your brain that makes you dream or maybe you dream when you are full ? Either way I will try to record my dreams when they happen and if I remember them.


(I know the time says 7:11AM but I was having trouble connecting to the internet at 6:25 when I woke up for some reason so I wrote this blog on notepad first because I didn't want to forget anything and I restarted the computer and then posted it on blogger.)

Saturday, October 8, 2011

About Me

My name is Thomas Murray and I am 24 years old and I live in Martinsville, Indiana. I'm sitting here trying to figure out some things to say about myself. I am originally from Memphis, Tennessee. I grew up there most of my life. I lived in Washington state a few years. I've lived in Indiana now for the past six years and I like it a lot. I like it a lot better than Texas which is where I just got back from. I love the cold weather. I would much prefer a freezing wintery snowy place than a hot sunny place. I am currently unemployed and have been for awhile now. I'm searching for a job in the truck driving industry. I just got back my Indiana CDL. I had a Texas CDL but since I came back up to Indiana I had to retake the test. I was only in Texas for about four weeks and then I came back. It's a long story so I'll save that one for the next blog. I love professional wrestling. It's one of my passions in life. I started watching it back in 1999 and I've mostly watched it every week since then. I enjoy other sports also like baseball and football. I like to think of myself as a religious person although I don't think you can call me a saint. I seem to mess up all the time when I'm trying to do good and watch my mouth. My mouth seems to be my biggest problem and has been ever since I was a kid. I always say things and then regret them later without really thinking about what I'm saying before I say it. I'm sure I can explain more in future blogs that I post. I would like to ultimately post my life story on here which is a long thrilling tale I can assure you. This first blog though is just for me to introduce myself and tell you a little about me. I am single and have never been married before. I don't really know if I want to get married or have kids at least not yet. I do enjoy my freedom. I love to travel and I hope to travel the world one day. I hope to make enough money driving a truck to save up and go on a world cruise or a road trip around Europe. Well I really can't think of anything else to say at the moment. I will try to write at least a few blogs each week and at least one story from my past each week and if something interesting happens to me on a particular day I will write my thoughts about it.